Confession

I have to be honest with you guys. When you start reading my blog, you might think that I'm some kind of a "superhuman" who thinks it's easy to leave sugar from your life and start the healthy habits. I have to say that when I started this sugar-free journey almost two years ago I had to be very very strict with myself. I still need to be. I'm the type of a person who loves to challenge myself and see how far I can go. So I took this challenge for myself.

Before I started I read a lot of good literature (I love books!), made notes and started to get to know different kinds of new food ingredients, mostly vegetables. I took a whole new attitude towards healthier eating thinking that I want to feel better. Also, I was little curious would there be some help for my skin. It wasn't the most convenient time making big changes to my diet when I was pregnant but I really wanted to try and plus eating healthier would be just beneficial for myself and an unborn baby, right? So I quit sugar. It was hard. So hard. To be honest, that wasn't the last time when I quit sugar. During the two years, I've been eating sugar sometimes maybe little bit too much but always came back to the healthier eating. Every time it has been easier and easier to quit sugar. And every time I have realized how bad I feel after eating a bunch of sugar and wheat. I have also realized that sugary things don't taste as good as they used to do. Every time when that happens, I'm a little disappointed, why I even needed to put that garbage to my body since it doesn't even give me a pleasure?

When I was pregnant to Isabella I had very strong sugar cravings all the time. It was ridiculous. I also suffered the pregnancy diabetes. Before I got to know that I already had stopped eating sugar, but I guess it didn't help. After Isabella was born my sugar cravings disappeared. It was funny how fast it happened. Now when I'm pregnant again I try to be very gentle for myself. I suffered almost three months the morning sickness and it was horrible. So I had to be very gentle for my body because the only things that felt good to eat was bread, bread and sometimes ice cream. So I ate. A lot of garbage. But that was the only thing that helped me to feel even slightly better.

After our (unsuccessful) Thailand trip all of a sudden I felt that I need to start eating healthy. I was so bored with eating meat and chicken so I started to look for vegetarian recipes. For long time I've been wanting to cook vegetarian food but I haven't had the courage to even start looking for any good recipes. I have always thought that eating vegetarian is boring and you just have empty and unsatisfied feeling afterwards. I was so wrong. My husband has been asking me for long time when we start eating vegetarian and it could be cheaper too. I have always avoided that topic because it made me feel uncomfortable. Funny isn't it? I guess it was because cooking vegetarian was way out of my comfort zone. But this time my curiosity was stronger and I found amazing recipes from Deliciously Ella -blog and I was sold. I've been cooking now almost two weeks only vegetarian foods and it's amazing! The foods are so simple to make and tastes so good. I would have never believed that I could fall for vegetarian! And guess what? They are filling and don't let me feel empty. I haven't craved any meat! I don't know how long I can cook like this but I feel good and also my skin looks already better.

Lately I have been reading about different cultures' health habits. It's so interesting. So far I've read how people eat in Japan and why they are the healthiest people in the world. Currently I'm reading why French women don't gain weight even though they eat bread, chocolate, wine etc. So far I've learnt that it's all about balancing, appreciating everything what you put to your mouth and sitting still while you're eating. So simple, but nowadays how many can do that? So I started, I stopped reading while I'm eating. I enjoy the tastes of the food I eat and sitting on the table and found out that it's not boring. It's actually fun to taste all the tastes, every little bite you take you feel it. It's like a little meditation moment. At the same time it makes me to appreciate the food very different way than before. I love the new ways of learning how to be fully present. I've noticed it about everything.  We have a habit with my husband that very evening before Isabella goes to bed we spend a little family time. We all enjoy it so much. We play funny games with her, sing songs, build blogs or read books with her. You can really see how it makes Isabella more happy when she can be the centre of the attention and we can both spend quality time with her. I really hope that we can continue that habit for many many years.

My husband made a vegetable soup only using a blender!

I have noticed that I have a very different approach for my current pregnancy than I had last time. I'm more relaxed and calm than ever before. I'm glad I have a chance to do it one more time because last time I was very stressed, bored and uncomfortable all the time. Now I want to listen to my body and be gentle to myself. My mind is more calm and I don't get frustrated that easy. It feels great. I also want to feel the baby year with this baby different way than with Isabella. With her I was so stressed all the time when I wanted to be perfect mom and do everything different way than any other mom in this neighborhood, and I failed. Now I just want to take it easy and as relaxed as I can take it with our little toddler included. I want to feel that "baby bubble" that people talk about all the time. I have to say that I didn't experience that with Isabella. I was so stressed and worried all the time. But now I'm more aware of the things what can happen and have more knowledge about the tricks what works and what are worth of trying. And also now I know that phases don't last forever.

                                                             Have a peaceful week!