33rd Week's Dilemma

This is my 33rd week and I'm getting impatient. I don't know how I feel when the weeks gets closer and closer but right now my wellbeing is tested. Being pregnant is a hard work. I had no idea. Even thinking about it to do it again and again and maybe once again puts me to think that can I really handle all of this uncomfortableness and different kinds of pains and symptoms. We'll see how things go, and it could be that I don't remember all of this such a painful process like it is right now. And like they say, the second pregnancy goes faster and sometimes easier when you already know what to expect.

Being pregnant is at the same time exciting and frustrating. To me at least it has been like that. It is fascinating to feel a little human growing inside your belly and to see all the changes in your body. There are so many things which are hard to explain to my husband but fortunately he is very patient and also I have friends who I can share my journey on becoming a mom. It is so helpful to hear other moms having similar thoughts and symptoms and frustrations when being pregnant. It gives me strength and motivation to keep going, one day I will see our precious treasure.

One day I was going through the clothes what I have bought for our little one and then I was thinking that how funny it is to prepare everything to someone that you haven't met yet. How do I know how does she looks like? Do the clothes that I have bought look good on her? What is her colour? As you can tell, I have a lot extra time. These are so silly thoughts I have but also good thoughts to not to go crazy with the baby stuff before the little one is here.

Who needs a table when you
can eat from your bump?

I would say that the third trimester is definitely the hardest time. I remember being so anxious when my bump wasn't still growing and I had to wear so skinny clothes so people could see that I'm carrying a baby inside me. Second trimester was definitely the easiest time when I didn't suffer the morning sickness anymore. I could go for long walks and even though I didn't enjoy my body and felt uncomfortable still I could do anything to go back to that stage, or not having at least this back ache that I have now. Now I suffer lots of uncomfortable symptoms. They are pretty normal pregnancy symptoms but people don't talk about these symptoms that much. I understand, I don't feel like complaining all the time either. Fortunately I don't have a big bump because I don't think I could handle that. It's hard enough to carry even this one. I would need to stretch my back and shoulders every 15 minutes and that's what I do in order to keep myself little bit more comfortable. Okay, I'm lucky that I'm still able to ride a bike. That is getting harder and harder too but at least I don't need to walk everywhere. And what comes to walking, it's not that easy anymore.. I need to rest quite often.

Gift from the Finnish government

When I started the 33rd week, I faced a new pregnancy symptom, hunger. And I don't mean the same hunger what I had in the first trimester but now I feel that I'm starving all the time. I wake up in the middle of the night and I feel that I will die if I can't have something to eat. It's crazy! I need to eat every three hours because I'm so hungry. And I don't like it. Thank God I quit sugar! At least now I eat something healthier instead of buns and cakes.

The baby shower gift
from my best girls

What comes to my new diet, it's really working. Quitting sugar was really difficult especially now when I have these crazy cravings but I'm glad I did it. I feel much better mentally. I don't need to stress about the food or what do I bake. Even having guests over doesn't cause me stress because I don't need to create something "special" for them like I used to think. I can't wait to see how do I feel after giving birth do I have more energy because I don't eat sugar. Well, maybe that is not still the best time to test myself in that area since I'm sure I won't have too much energy anyway because of the baby.. but anyway, I'm sure that it helps me to have even little bit more energy than comparing if I ate the same way like I did 3 months ago. I'm also curious to know more and more about nutrition. I have such a hunger for new information and I love it. The more I know the easier it gets to rationalise that I don't need sugar and wheat. Oh yes, I still have cravings, every once in a while I would love to have a bun or ice cream but now I don't have that "need" anymore that I used to have. I can rationalise myself not having it. And I also know that I can survive without it. My husband has been very encouraging to me. He has his own battles with sugar and wheat but at least he keeps me not having all that junk at our house.

Of course I don't want to become too strict with this new diet. And I don't want it to be a big deal where ever I go. Whenever I go visit someone or if there is a party of course I am going to eat the food what they have there. It's not harmful to eat some cake or sweets if it's just a one time thing. Also I don't need to eat that if there is something else to eat. But for example we are going to wedding and there is a cake, I will eat the cake (not the whole cake though..). I won't make myself to feel guilty about eating something if it's just a one time thing. Although everything is about making a decision. Not giving up to your desires. When I realised that, giving up of sugar was so much easier.

Everything is ready for the princess!